It's been a while hasn't it. Haven't been playing WoW for a long time now. Not since I left you guys. Big mistake on my part, couldn't find meself playing this game without you guys so I decided to quit for the time being. Not shortly after, I began thinking about what I said, what I did and how I blamed you guys for things that aren't meant to be present in an online game. I felt really depressed by what I had possibly done to you guys which you <strong>never ever</strong> deserved in the first place! Again my apologies, I wasn't in a very "stable" situation if you like. I am not here to give you guys my apologies, no not at all. As I said I felt really bad at what I'd done. It got me thinking, so after I pushed myself to the very edge of suicide.. I hit me, as clear as the rain falling on my cheeks. Just open up, be happy, talk, talk, talk about yer bloody problems & move out! Thats exactly what I did. I began consulting a shrink 2 weeks after I had left CWO, 2 months later I got anti-depression tablets (which I recently dropped :D). Sadly I am not living by myself yet. Things didn't go as planned, but! I am progressing and learning a new trade too! Will be moving out during the Summer Break (I hope) and well... I can cope now, cope with my problems, cope with my mothers scoldings, cope with myself basically. I hope you can all forgive me for my rash decisions and my behaviour. I know now, after a long time of treatment that it was all in my head, twisting and turning fer the worst. I don't want to re-join CWO if yer wondering, not playing WoW anymore. I just want to be brought back into the "loop" to keep in touch with you guys via CWO.com.
This is my plee, my question towards what I now consider to be a few of my most respected virtual "friends".
With respect, admiration and sincereness, Ariëll Valendor Florissan a.k.a Nick